||[Jul. 25th, 2005|12:42 pm]
|[||I'm Feelin' this..
Whats wrong with me?
I dont know why i get jealous over stupid things, that any normal person would just brush off. Then i end up getting all upset and crying for no reason, and then i get mad and take it out on the few people who actually care about me. I try to just act like nothings wrong so i DONT get mad.. but then people just get mad at me. I dont mean to get mad, or act stupid, but it just seems like i'm going through the motions , day after day after day, just kinda existing but not really living. I dont care how stupid i sound. Its how i feel. And i feel like an idiot. I've been crying for like half an hour, but i dont know why! And i just want to leave this place so bad but i dont know how. I feel like I'm stuck, like I just can't leave.
I am just so sorry that he has to put up with all of my shit.
. I'M SORRY.